Wow. Talk about time machine. This blog was started 3 years ago with the intention of putting into words what my crazy life entails. It seems like just yesterday I put this blog into motion.
My whole point of this blog was to entail the atrocities, adventures, high points, low points, but mostly just plain gettin’ real with it, ya know? Somehow I instinctively knew my life was about to get a little crazy.
On my 30th birthday (last blog)….something broke. Something broke free, in ME. (it seems so weird to put this down 3 years later….I just had my 33rd birthday). It was the literal start of my next grand adventure. Not being so grand in the beginning, I unfortunately went through a separation which then led to divorce. I was incredibly sad, depressed, and ashamed. Alas, with life there seems to always be ups and downs and you better be ready for that roller coaster, because there is no getting off.
The upcoming year brought me to several hospital visits, terrifying moments with my very sick daughter, depression, anxiety, A LOT of alcohol, my son having terrible behavioral issues, weak moments, and man oh man the list goes on. (We CAN be real here, right? if not just leave the blog…please.) What’s funny is….that friend that I appreciated so much in my earlier blog and who I took advice from for my garden was slowly gaining my heart. My heart was slowly being warmed again after a long frigid winter. My kids started smiling, we started going on adventures here and there, and then everyday turned into an adventure.
The year after the frigid, scary, frightening storm was simmering down, The roller coaster was actually becoming a little bit fun, and the independence I was gaining was life changing. Right before my eyes, my kids became hero’s and life changing little humans. God had shown me multiple times that He was not trying to hurt me, but make everything new again. My old self had to die in order to grow into this beautiful, confident, intricate piece of art. Now, I am not trying to make myself more then what I am….because let me tell you in between all of those harsh and good times I made more mistakes then I ever had….not because I am a horrible immoral person, but because I was able to with the grace and mercy of our unfailing God.
Now, in this year….I am working full time at a job that I love dearly. I am in love with a man that usually kisses me with the taste of Copenhagen and beer on his breath (but I love it), my kids are well rounded, healthy, and all in all good kids. Our garden is even BIGGER and fruitful……and most of all: I AM BLISSFULLY HAPPY. My adventure has been grand and is still in full swing. My ex husband comes over to chat and drink a beer, and I just got to meet his beautiful new girlfriend.
Now that we got that out of the way….I can share the best pieces of me…for REALS!! I’ll be sharing what Nick and I like to create (a planter box out of a box spring?), (a burn barrel that could heat a home or be used to smoke meat for jerky?) I mean…he usually creates all this stuff, but I have the blog 🙂
We’re also getting married….on our farm….it’s perfect, right? I’ll make sure to share!